well i really cannot identify the anomaly, should i even bother or just let it go as it is? i really don't know what to do.

i've been meaning to post this yst but time didn't allow. well, some quotes from xinru the sleepy-starting-afresh one(i fully support you haha)

1. XR (mumbling during econs tutorial): arggh im feeling sleepy already, i tell you, it's the FOOD...
2. XR (also during econs tutorial, quite awake): eh you know ah, when i was in sec OOR.....
3. me (during chem remedial): eh you want a gummy bear?
XR: huh what?
me: you want a gummy bear?
XR: BUNNY HAIR??

lolol!!! one funny person man!
but thank God for her too, she has encouraged me so much this year:) somehow, all of us, feels like a God planned meeting. wouldn't have imagined it 4 months ago, but here we are, and 'we are very happening'(quote from emilee).


..anyway, this was supposed to be my 151th post.

what's the point of all that saving? all will come to naught i know. i know long ago when it started.
when i said "be there soon enough" (inspired from AWTY)
i minimized the page, to see, "will be there soon".

'how i wish time could stop
we can sit under the stars
not care about anything else in the world
talk until the cows go home.'

poem? short passage? ..once found in a treasured friend's old chinese textbook, encased in memory.
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reading back, i don't like being so uncertain, so deluded, somewhat hurt? i don't like picking at pieces of fluff so insubstantial, don't like swinging from end to end. yet, i have hope, lots and lots of hope. sometimes i can't even comprehend why so much. just optimism? or someone telling me silently, it's gna be alright. may it be.