i hate myself when the hopes and expectations of other people on me goes crashing down like a storm, or leak away slowly like a melting piece of ice.

i hate myself for all the wrongs i've done as a kid no older than 10, until now, the youth no older than 15.

i hate myself for always getting the wrong impression of people and giving a wrong impression to others as well.

i hate myself for wasting time and again, never being able to organise anything constructive, always staying the average of everything.

but God loves me.....i know.