sometimes if you don't try, you wouldn't know.
but i just cannot help imagining the look of your incredulous face if i told you what i want to tell. i wish it may not be.

and i can't help thinking how amazing evrythg could be if it's how i think it is.
but.. it's like i've been caught between the dream of you and the reality of me.

tsk. so emo. third time: can't help it.

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i like going out with mates like xinlin and yethong! went out to ps/j8 ytd. xinlin bought me The Chronicles of Narnia..the full set for 27 bucks. it's brand new, wrapped and amazing! it's for my birthday prezzie, and i'm uber touched~ lots and lots of thanks!

at yamaha, we saw a small boy looking so young.. playing debussy's arabesque, my once dream piece. my goodness, he was superb la! his hands so tiny, was flying across the piano like it was some small feat. *round of applause* i wish i can be like him. hahahaha

we each bought shades at seiyu;j8. 15 bucks, so expensive! waste money somemore. sigh, for the sake of looking good(haha which i don't) and for the competition tomorrow; it's our dance once more.

woke up today with a swollen right eye. ow.

i love new scores:D

oh, i have a second student on wed: mum! i hope i'm doing well.


i may not be able to go for youth camp 06. ahhhhh, i shld be praying about it.

im feeling so weak and confused and sadly, sad these few days. so many things bugging me..unsaved ones, never be saved ones? someone told me once that some people will never be saved. is that true? i can't stand that some loved ones would may be suffering eternal death one day, and i won't/haven't/couldn't do anything about it. it would be like standing on safe(shaky?) ground, watching people around you fall down to an eternal crevice. if i stretch a hand, i may be able to touch them..but perhaps i'm shaking myself.

tell me God has provided a way to walk to safe ground, i want to believe.