how many times have I broken Your heart
still You forgive if only I asked

makes me feel guilty, yet comforted too.
im thirsty for you presence to be once more in my life.

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my piano exam's on July 17, the same day as my brother. got the date quite long ago, was shocked as we specified August. realized that it's been less then a year since the previous exam. no matter what our standard is, i will do my best. like pauline said, God already knows how we're gonna do, what marks we're gonna get, so just leave it all in His hands. BUT! Please still pray for us(: Thanks.

band competion next saturday. second and last performance with sec4s. again, whatever the result, whether we get glowing gold or sparkling silver, we have already accomplished so much. we'd worked hard for the past months, met with ups and downs, but didn't and will not give up!

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'my whys
why are there so many trials for me this week?
why can't God change you in one night, letting you forgive and believe the next new morning?
why does temptation, conflict and discord keep creeping into lives?
why, when i should NOT, did i turn cold seeing you?
why, do i always get sucked into the masses, pulling back and in again?
why aren't we talking?
why do you have to hide secrets from me? or perhaps, why won't you tell me what happened?
why does sickness have to exist?
why can't i stop asking?!

it's the vicious spiral, there's a beginning and a end.

on a brighter note, i'm going to swim with yicen and inez tomorrow. please, stop crapping about boys whom i don't know. and then watch she's the man.

maybe i'll do my quizzes now, pack my bag and go to bed.

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I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY JINJUN

#1 Do the following WITHOUT complains

#2 Choose 5 people to do this after you completed

#3 Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged

#4 Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

FAVOURITES

Colour: blue

Food: whatever appealing at the moment

Movie: land before time, lord of the ring, harry potter, pirates of the caribbean.. there's some stuck to the back of my mind.

Day of the Week: no day.

Season: my mom's friend told me this>
summer:hot. autumn: humid and smelly. spring:erm forgot. winter: freezing.
i guess i don't know.

CURRENTS

Mood: lonely

Taste: pear? just ate a piece.

Clothes: yellow "FREMANTLE AUSTRALIA" shirt and dark blue shorts.

Desktop Picture: winnie the pooh and friends

Toenail Colour: erm.

Surroundings: in my room, at night.

Annoyances: it's late, but i want to continue blogging though i know tml i will sleep in class again.

FIRSTS

Best Friends: nursery.. forgot her name -.-

Crush: not telling xP

Movie: cannot rmb too.

Lie: if i say i rmb, i will be have my latest lie.

Music: doe a deer i think.

LASTS

Cigarette: don't smoke

Drink: water

Movie: just my luck

Phonecall: i'm on the phone with jinjun (who just called) and yeesuan

Played: my instrument? 3 hrs twenty minutes ago.

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated One Of Your Best Friends: not counted.

Broken The Law: no idea

Been Arrested: no lah

Skinny Dipped: you wish ah.

Been On TV : hmm. i think so.

Kissed Someone You Don't Know : no lah

NUMERICAL-NONSENSICAL

Five Things You Are Wearing Right Now: shirt, shorts, underwear, specs, hair

Four Things You've Done Today: went to school, have cell time, ate, went for band.

Three Things You Hear Right Now: yeesuan and jinjun's voices, my typing, the fan.

One Thing That You Do When You're Bored: play the piano.

TAG!

#1 michelle
#2 christine
#3 madeline
#4 wuenyin
#5 YOU!

-NEXT-

got tagged by chrissy!

what's the best nickname you've ever had?
huijunmomojunnyhuilai

Do you think suicide is the best way?
of course not

Rate your social life from scale 1 - 10.
erm. 7

are you in love with someone at the moment?
i hope not..

are you missing someone at the moment?
i hope not too.

would you die for the one you love?
i guess so.

do you think love hurts?
yes i think so.

what's the best thing about love?
hmm. that someone loves you?

what's the worst thing about love?
you may get hurt. it may be one-sided.

will you wait for someone you love?
what kind of wait?

what song that best decribes your love life at the moment?
"have you ever" keeps playing in my mind.

do you wanna get married?
yes i hope i will.

have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
not counted too.

do you keep memories or try to forget them?
Keep them.

is love always on your side or the opposite way?
no idea.

are you sick of love?
no lah. love is everywhere. lols.

are you sick of question of love?
bring it on! LOL whatever.

what are you going to do today-tomorrow?
go school, go swimming with yicen and inez.

what do you want so badly right now?
to talk to you once more.

do you think money is everything?
of course not.

what's the song that you last downloaded?
James Bond.

So last would be…
what's that word?

how much do you love music?
alot

do you play an instrument?
yea.

have you written your own song?
dunno if the lit play songs are counted. they are modified though.

what movie did you last watch?
just my luck

do you believe in love forever?
same as chrissy. God's love.

what's in your mind right now?
everyone's going to sleep! wait!

what song is in your mind right now?
yiddish dances.

five people to do this quiz
jinjun, yeesuan, xinlin, madeline, chekseen.

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maybe i'll wake up to find the world plainly in black and white (random)
maybe i'll wake up to find that nothing went wrong.
maybe i'll wake up to find that nothing had changed, only my perspective.




maybe i'll go to sleep, so that i may wake up.