this is one of my unique posts.

i know this sound weird, how unique can this get, you might think.

well its just that i have not been posting for so long anyway...

well, i got nothing much to say.

my studies are on a rollercoaster ride.

my mood's their companians.

ahh, i will stop writing like that. its so down.

HOLIDAYS ARE COMING!!! this is happy enough i think.

yes, and band still rock as much as last time.

but i think ms sia is better than mr ong.

mr ong's getting weirder.

i wonder what's wrong with him.

ms sia's still as funny! she's talks in her bao language.

Okay, it's not all, but that's one of the parts anyway!

and my goodness my piano exam's on 19th September!!!

and my scales still suck.

my pieces, my aural, my sidereading.

they are ---fullstop.

GEE i'm nervous!!

nevermind.

oh just to add on, xinlin's the one who prompted me into writing this post.

just to get the flair.

ahaha. ahhh, it's gone again.

i'm thirsty. and sticky. does that count?

i don't feel accomplished too.

i've been sleeping every afternoon. waste time.

i badly want to do something, let it be meaningful, with depth, useful. able to let me learn something.

but what's there to do?

reading chinese? i will fell asleep.

history? i always forget.

science? didn't bring home.

maths? how to?

reading books? i've done enough of that to know i'm wasting time.

blogging. see. it's wastingtime too(in the way i'm doing it, talking about nonsense.)

see. i can't even write something meaningful. without spilling all my insides out.

i got so much to say.

but if i do say it out

i don't know what people would think. i feel wrong somehow.

???

this year's full of changes.

perhaps i did not change. or maybe i changed the most. the point is; it's different already.

i get gloomy, i become happy again. the cycle repeats.

i'm tired of it.

they are all so superficial. so on-the-surface.

i want joy, not just happiness.

i don't want to feel sad. nonono.

well, it's dinnertime.

God reigns. He does.

I will trust in Him!

And everything would just be it.

bye!